I hate it so much when my own friends use peer pressure on me to hang out with people I don't know and I don't want to meet. I have creepling anxiety over meeting with people I don't know or having to stay alone with a strange. But of course that doesn't matter, of course, my problems are never important, I know it, I'm used to it, it has always been like that whith the people I know. Because not wanting to meet new people is a problem, is something nobody can fathom, of course, my mental health does not care, because I'm acting like an idiot. Yeah, I know, it's always like this, I'm the weirdo who does not want to go to clubs or meet with strangers. But I always have to give in, because it's just weird not doing it, because they are all doing it so why don't you do it? Don't be silly, you'll see you'll have an amazing time. No, I know I won' t have a good time, but I will go anyway, because that's what you all want from me, as always. Yes, I'm asocial, and yes, i know that's not the normal thing, but that doesn't mean I'm weird, I'm just different, and that's ok, I just... need some time for myself from time to time, and then I'll go back to the cheerfull girl I have always been, the one who goes to every party she is invited to, because I love my friends, and I'll do whatever for them, that's just how I am.
